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नकारात्मक सोच

नकारात्मक सोचना कुछ बुरी बात नही हे पर हद से ज्यादा सोचना बुरी बात हे आजकल मुझे लग रहा हे मे कुछ ज्यादा ही नकारात्मक सोच रहा हू इसीलिये मेरी लोगो के साथ कुछ खास बन नही रही हे और ये ओव्हर थिंकिंग के वजह से सबको अपना दुश्मन समझ ले रहा हू ऐसा मुझे लग रहा हे ये एकसाईड और दुसरी साईड मुझे ऐसा भी लग रहा हे के जो मे सोच रहा हू वो बिलकुल सही हे मुझे लगता हे के मे विक्टिम हू हर किसीने मेरा फायदा उठाया हुवा हे हर कोई मुझसे खाली मतलब के लिए ही बात करता हे ये सब कुछ ज्यादा ही मेरे दिमाग मे चल रहा हे मे चाहता हू के मेरे दिमाग से ये सब फालतू बाते निकल जाये मे ओव्हरथिंकिंग करणा बंद कर्दू पर जेसे जेसे वक्त गुजर रहा हे वेसे वेसे मे ज्यादा सोच रहा हू मुसीबते बढती जा रही हे और मे हर चीज के लिए अपने आस पास के लोगो को जीमेदार मानते जा रहा हू और कुछ हद तक ये सही भी हे पर मुझे ईन सब झमेलो से निकल कर अपनी आगे कि जिंदगी और बेहतर कैसे बने और इसके आगे जाके मे सोचू सब लोगो को दोषी मानणे के बजाय मे बस जिंदगी मे पॉसिटीव्ह चिजो पे ध्यान दु और अपनी आनेवाले जिंदगी हसी खुशी बिताऊ ओर हमेशा खुश रहू मेरे आस पास के लोगो को ...
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मतलब

दुनिया बोहत मतलबी हे ये तो सुना ही होगा आपने पर उससे ज्यादा मतलबी अपने लोग हे वो इतने लालची और मतलबी हे के उसका कोई हद नहीं हे मेरा सगा भाई ईन सब चिजो मे बोहत माहीर हे हमेशा बडा होने का फायदा उठाता हे छोटे भाइयों को गाली देना हमेशा उनकॊ नीचा दिखाना ब्लॅकमेल करणा ये सब उसे बोहत अच्छेसे से आता हे पूरी जिंदगी जबसे मुझे समझ आया हे तबसे उसने बस मेरा सोशन हि किया और हमेशा मुझे हि दुनिया के सामने गलत ही दिखल वाया और मेरे आस पास के लोगोने हमेशा उस्का ही विश्वास किया अब जेसे जेसे मुझे समझ आरही हे वेसे वेसे मेरे दिलमे उसके लिये नफरत बढ रही हे क्यून्की ऊन भाईसाब कॊ आज भी यही लग रहा हे के वो सही हे बाकी सब गलत पिछले दो साल से वो हमसे हमारे मेहनत का पैसा लेते जा रहा हे अपने सो कोल्ड बिसनेस कॊ यशस्वी बनाने के लिये जबकी उस्का उलटा ही होरहा हे वो लगातार हम जिस बिसनेस मे मेहनत करके के पैसा लारहे हे वो हर महिने 3-4लाख रुपये हमसे लेके उसके बिसनेस मे डाल रहा हे और उसे पूछले गल्तीसे के पैसा कहा डाल रहे तो पॅटर्न एकही जवाब हे उसके पास तुमलोग देखते नहीं होक्या ग्रुप सब स्क्रीनशॉट तो डालता हू और मेरा हमेशा से...
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Alcohol

The alcohol is good or bad i don't know but its give satisfaction confidence power talk to people clear your views about earth after drink alcohol in limited amount it will be good for you and use of access amount then it will bother you my experience about drinking alcohol is good i drink limited if life slowes down that time i preferred drink alcohol 
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Father

Father the name of people thinks that its biggest support or biggest piller of life but if you think from my mind it's biggest lie of life he never stand by your side 90% people thinking may be i am wrong but if you look in to my eyes i will correct you my father is when he earning good he spend all money on his alcoholic addiction and faltu friends he always is stress i don't know which kind of stress he have he always dronking alcohol with his friends enjoying his own life staying out of station with family he never entertain to his own kids he thinks always to he enjoy life and send to his children work he should enjoy the life after the all enjoyment of his life now he always be thinking negative allways thoughts his children are nalayak nakara they can't earn money and they can't raised him shortly his children should sale his all property and come to him on street those all thoughts comes his mind but Truth is different he stays home from past 25 years he nevere e...
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Mother

Mother the word which take 99% people emotional may be its right but think about 1% also what they are facing i don't know how to describe but for my experience i look if my eyes i am not satisfied cause we 3 brother one sister mother first love is son who earned well she always keep talking about him in front of every people how hardworking son he is how he run homes family always appreciat him for everything 2nd love small child always take care of him always support him always underestimated his mistakes his wrong decision always thinks his small trying hard for success but she forget how much time his son are failed aalso always talking big things but never work hard for this tallk just talking big big speeches everytime he giving lectures to anyone but he and also mother can't understand someone is working hard and earn money for them but  mother always thinking about this always worried about him after that mom loves her girl child unconditional always interfare her girl ...
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Myself

I am boy handicap, lower cast, skin dark i don't know these 3 things how define me may be some time i thinking because of this i am feeling guilty for life or i already accepted as looser cause these thing comes to my behalf i don't know what is the meaning or where i take my way or always feel poor it's come my faith may be i trying to live happy ignoring people who are treating not good with me not accepting me as human i ignored everything but now because of so many problems in my life i am going to feeling low now these phase of my life is so crucial for me i don't know these is my feeling or really i reach there who is responsible myself or my position or current circumstances are made for break my strength i really don't know but my gut feeling are high on my mind but in this all situation no one are available where i can talk and realease my pain from my heart i really feels lonely ness in my life i am looking for forget all those things but different situati...
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