Myself

I am boy handicap, lower cast, skin dark i don't know these 3 things how define me may be some time i thinking because of this i am feeling guilty for life or i already accepted as looser cause these thing comes to my behalf i don't know what is the meaning or where i take my way or always feel poor it's come my faith may be i trying to live happy ignoring people who are treating not good with me not accepting me as human i ignored everything but now because of so many problems in my life i am going to feeling low now these phase of my life is so crucial for me i don't know these is my feeling or really i reach there who is responsible myself or my position or current circumstances are made for break my strength i really don't know but my gut feeling are high on my mind but in this all situation no one are available where i can talk and realease my pain from my heart i really feels lonely ness in my life i am looking for forget all those things but different situation puted me there i don't know what execuse should i gave to people but because of all these drama my mind forgetting my mental health slowly slowly all negative thought are breaking my all strength i don't know how recovere from these stage but still i am trying to fight with all those things i never believe in god right now so i don't want to beg from him make my life easier i think if i pray for good these is my selfishness will come to my mind so i really want to normal days should come to my life also i don't want blem anyone but slowly slowly i putting blems to family and i hiding my mistakes also i thought i never strong enogh to stick with my truth i am the criminal all those things happened to me i am the responsible person for all things also i hiding my face and blem everyone who is near by me i really want to appreciat people who help me and forget them and think about my life accepting whatever happening in my life only i am the responsible.

So if god your are available to near me please make situation like i forget everyons mistake only  of because  

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